Turning Pain Into Purpose
I started the Bereaved Mother's Day Gathering event in 2023 to honor and celebrate the mothers who carry children in their hearts rather than in their arms. It is a special day to support and honor women who have experienced pregnancy loss and infant death, which includes miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, ectopic pregnancy, termination for medical reasons, and the death of a newborn. It is my heartfelt mission to always honor Ezra by raising awareness and supporting bereaved mothers and families through conferences, group support, one-on-one support, and more. We also welcome those who have not experienced a loss but would like to honor and support the mothers and families who have.
Living After Loss
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support circle for bereaved mothers
This program is for you if:
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You experienced miscarriage, neonatal death, stillbirth, or infant loss
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You feel unseen, misunderstood, or alone in your grief
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Your faith was shaken or stretched by this loss
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You long for a space where your baby’s life is honored
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You need support that is gentle, not clinical
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You don’t have to be okay. You just have to come.
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* This program is not a substitute for therapy or medical care.
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Week 1 – You Are Still a Mother: Identity After Loss
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Week 2 – The Trauma of Loss: What happened to my body, brain, and heart
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Week 3 – God After This: Faith after infant loss
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Week 4 – Living With the Empty Arms: Daily life after loss
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Week 5 – Remembering & Honoring Your Baby: Continuing bonds
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Week 6 – Who Am I Becoming Now? identity and hope
Optional Add-ons
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Week 7 – Pregnancy After Loss
Fear, guilt, and hope
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Week 8 – Reconnecting with my partner: Holidays, Anniversaries & Long-Term Grief
Living After Loss
​Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support Circle
​​This sacred support circle is designed for mothers who have experienced miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death, or infant loss.
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The loss of a baby changes everything — your body, your heart, your faith, and your sense of identity. Yet many mothers are left grieving in silence, expected to “move on” far too quickly. Beauty Redeemed: Living After Loss exists to provide a trauma-informed, faith-anchored space where bereaved mothers can be seen, supported, and gently guided as they learn how to live after loss — without forgetting their baby or minimizing their pain.
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This is not therapy and not a traditional support group.
This is a guided grief circle led by a bereaved mother who understands both the devastation of infant loss and the sacredness of continuing love.
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This program includes:
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Weekly 90-minute virtual group sessions
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Trauma-informed grief education
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Gentle nervous-system grounding
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Faith-centered reflection and biblical lament
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Optional sharing in a confidential group setting
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Digital grief workbook and resources
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A private, supportive community of bereaved mothers
If you would like to bring this service to your church or organization, please send us an email.
My Story
I went to my normal prenatal appointment on Monday, July 20th, 2020, to get my cervix checked, and no dilation was happening; my cervix was closed, and I hadn’t experienced any contractions. My due date was July 28th, 2020. My doctor put me on evening primrose to help soften up the cervix, and by Friday the 24th, something was finally happening. By 6 pm, they were coming in mildly. I tried walking and soaking in a hot bath, but they just kept coming. My water hadn’t broken, but I started to bleed lightly. Is it Time?! I called the doctor's office to inform them what was going on. They gave me the choice to wait it out or come in. My motherly instincts told me to go in, and if they send me home, oh well. I went to the hospital and got all checked in. They hooked me up to the monitors and informed me they would be keeping me. I was 2 centimeters dilated, but every time I had a contraction, my baby boy's heart rate would drop. They gave me some medication to stop the contractions and to help stop his heart rate from dropping. I tried to remain calm, and I could tell the nurses were trying as well, but shortly after, they attempted to break my water. I was in so much pain and unable to get an epidural. I was rushed to get prepped for an emergency C-section. No one could go back with me, so it was just me, Jesus, and my amazing medical team. Still trying to remain calm, the nurses prepped me, and the last thing I remember before I was put to sleep was “you’ll be meeting your baby boy very soon.” I went under with the hopes of waking up, seeing my precious baby boy, and beginning the journey of motherhood officially.
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When I woke up, I was surrounded by family, but no one was smiling. The nurse informed me that my son didn’t even get to take his first breath outside the womb. Immediately after they delivered him, they began to resuscitate him, but the meconium fluid was extremely thick in his lungs. Meconium is a newborn baby's first stool, a dark green to black, thick, sticky, tar-like substance composed of intestinal cells, fats, and bile that typically passes in the first few days after birth. It forms in the womb from swallowed amniotic fluid and other substances. While normal, if meconium is released into the amniotic fluid before birth and then inhaled by the baby, it can cause a serious condition called meconium aspiration syndrome (MAS), leading to breathing problems and a need for respiratory support.
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Ezra Nehemiah Born July 24th, 11:33 pm- Went to heaven July 25th, 12:24 am. He was gone before then, but that was the official call time. My baby boy was dead, gone to heaven. I never got to hear his voice, see his eyes, or feel the warmth of his body against my skin. They brought him in, and I was able to hold him close. His body was cold, but he appeared to be sleeping peacefully. Swaddled in blankets, I slowly unwrapped him to examine his beauty. HE WAS PERFECT!
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Because of this tragic event, I have met some amazing women who share in this suffering. The fact that Ezra was my first and only child made it hard to celebrate Mother’s Day, so I decided to honor mothers who have lost children and make them feel special and seen on their day. Bereaved Mother’s Day is the first Sunday of May. I started the Bereaved Mother’s Day Gathering, where we honor the moms who are now a part of this lifelong tribe. In honor of Ezra, I also host a Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Conference and support bereaved mothers and families in their journey of grief.
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Losing a child is one of the most heartbreaking experiences any parent can face, and I believe it is crucial to provide a supportive and comforting environment for bereaved mothers during this difficult time. Our events aim to bring together bereaved mothers and families for a day of remembrance, healing, and solidarity, helping them feel supported and cared for during what is a very tragic life event.
Our mission is to provide compassionate support, burial and cremation costs, as well as celebration of life services and memory keepsakes. As a small business, we are eager to partner with organizations that care for grieving mothers and families. We appreciate your patience as we strive to meet the needs of those we serve during this difficult time.